I recently shared part of my forgiveness journey at Montavilla and Tabor Heights UMC.  As the Office Manager, this isn’t something I have done before in this type of setting. and I am still processing through the effects.  Whether we share to a close friend, or a group of people, sharing our story is a pathway to healing, but it also opens the door for being hurt.

When I choose to share my story as part of my spiritual journey of healing, my audience is an audience of 1. At times I can feel a nudge to share in a group setting, or it may be a natural part of a conversation between two close friends.  It doesn’t always come out right, and even those who know me best may not really understand.  This is a risk I take to develop deeper relationships, and to be more authentic.  I remind myself that sharing is something between me and my God and that as I practice being vulnerable, I will learn better at how to do it, and I can trust my Higher Power to be present.

Sharing my story allows me to continue to see where I am at, not where other’s think I am at.  One of the beauties of 12 step groups, is that the no feedback rule allows individuals to hear and share their own stories without others trying to save or fix them.  I know this can be challenging for me as well, when I hear parts of a story, and I make quick assumptions when I am trying to relate to someone.  I was fortunate to hear some very kind and helpful feedback when I shared for the two churches, but I also recognize sharing feelings and abuse stories can bring up a lot of stuff for other people.

I am grateful to have a God that continues to heal us and connect us in whatever our Forgiveness journey looks like.  I am always open to this conversation, as there is so much more for me to learn.

May God’s grace be upon on!

Elissa Noble